I’ve had severe depression for 2 years now, I’ve been on 2 differe t types of medication for it, going up to 75mg, I’ve had to leave school, I’ve lost most of my friends, girls don’t talk to me anymore, I’m a musician and I’m trying to get noticed, and before you say anything note that I am aware that a lot of people have it much worse, my plan was if I got famous I would donate heaps to charity and have schools built for kids with disabilitys, I would do as much I can for causes like animal rights, poverty, famine ect. I’m just so damn depressed all the time and it’s tearing my family apart, my brother had autism and my mum has been in hospital, I’m just so over all of it.. Am I just being over dramatic?
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Wanting a fair shot at happiness is not overly dramatic as long as you are doing what you can on your end. Yes, it is worth it.
My first suicide attempt was at age 15, at 16 I did a much better job at the task and the doctors said it was a miracle they were able to bring me back.
You have a condition that is very hard to treat because science doesn’t have the tools to measure a persons exact brain chemistry and how it affects how it makes that individual feel.
The medications to fix your imbalance are out there.
But understand a psychiatrist is just making an educated guess as to what medication, what dose or combo of meds will work for you.
If you go through less then 5 trials and achieve a happy balance consider yourself lucky.
It took me ten years and I ended up having to research and study to the point I have read twice the text required for most PHD programs.
I ended up telling my doctor this is what I want to try now. My ‘guess’ worked.
Worse case you will try enough different meds and combos that personal experience along with self study will allow you to figure it out for yourself.
Never get psyche meds from a doctor who is not a psychiatrist who has spend their entire career learning about the medications and witnessing the effects they have on patients.
I am not a doctor but your grandiose plans, the fact you enjoy music or anything for that matter, mixed with talk of hopelessness and despair reads like bipolar disorder, also more common among creative types (artists, musicals, writers).
I’m happy and successful so yes it is worth it. I am glad I stuck it out and that was ten years and still I think was worth it.
Wellbutrin 150 MG BID is what you should ask your doctor how THEY feel about trying on you, unless you have a seizure disorder or something else in your chart that would indicate otherwise of course.
If you have very bad mood swings Lamictal can be used alone or in combination with Wellbutrin.
It is also effective for many people with depression in patients without mixed episodes.
Most meds take about a month to start working.
Don’t drink booze it worsens the chemical balance that causes depression.
Read the serious side effects for anything you are on, don’t trust any doctor to tell you, it’s your life you are responsible for it.
For example Lamictal can cause a life threatening rash.
And any med that changes your brain chemistry can change it for the worse.
I’d also like to add that even after the chemical imbalance is ‘fixed’ you must make a choice to focus on the good things in life.
Reality for everyone is perception, we get to choose how we see things. Being positive is hardwork and takes practice.
My house flooded, I get to have fun rebuilding it, choosing new flooring and a long needed serious clutter extraction can no longer be put off which was bothering me but not enough to motivate me to do it.
I’m getting a divorce, now I have the opportunity to make a happier life for myself.
I didn’t get hired for a job I really, really wanted and the interview process was obnoxiously time consuming.
I got free interviewing training increasing my chances to get another job I may want even more.
The hardest part for me was the company was also rude simply not contacting me after going as far as to ask when I could start and negotiated salary and saying they would send the official offer of employment to my recruiter so I could start after New Years.
The worse part was zero consideration after taking up so much of my time!
Plus I felt we had a repor after so much interaction so my feelings were hurt.
They made me come in on Xmas eve day when all major roads to their office was flooded. They made me take a bunch of online and over the phone tests which I did excellent on. I hate being tested.
Multiple interviews. The application alone was a packet. I enrolled my child in daycare even.
She responded to my follow up email, thanking her for her time, looking forward to working with the team, have a merry Xmas… Blah blah blah.
THEN instead of call or email me to nail down the start date…
She did not contact me at all. Ignored my email and my VM. Just left me hanging.
It was so hard to put a positive spin on that emotionally, I hate being treated like a shmuck!
My recruiter had to harass them to find out what was going on, and all he got was we decided not to hire anyone, close the position.
Instead of dwell of being treated badly I realized I didn’t want to work for a company that treats people that way and was grateful because it made me feel better about not getting the job.
The pain you are suffering now will allow you to write better music.
by: avictor
on: 8th February 13